And sometimes? Not so much.
I posted earlier in the month about feeling like superwoman. Today? Not so much.
The week was off to a rough start - a wedding on Saturday, Brad’s grandfather’s birthday party on Sunday (complete with a 2.5 hour drive EACH WAY) and Brad gone for an overnight work trip Monday night. Add to that a 5AM wake-up on Wednesday morning, very hot and humid temperatures, stir in a little 45-minute screamfest by Gwen last night along with 4 wakes by Gil, two soaked onesies, and a tipped potty on the bed?
You get today.
Today when it is 29C (84F) feels like 40C (104F!!!!) with the humidity. Today when the window A/C unit has not had the opportunity to be installed. Today Gwen has been having tantrum after tantrum.
Today, I am not such a good mother. Today, I am just trying to keep it together - to not raise my voice (too loud), to not say things that I will regret, to enjoy the presence of my children.
Jen said,
July 24, 2010 @ 12:54 am
It’s so hard when all seems to be so horribly difficult. As you well know, I have those days too - we all do. You’re doing a great job! Don’t be too hard on yourself, especially not when you’ve been dealt such a tough week. No mother is perfect and keeps their cool 100% of the time - and if they claim to be, they’re lying. As long as the kids are fed, dry and alive some days that’s enough reason to give myself a thumbs up and an icecream treat
Brandy said,
July 24, 2010 @ 5:02 am
I adore you Kim.
First afternoon alone and naptime was a bit traumatic for Isabel I’m afraid. She did fall asleep with me sitting next to her holding baby buy she’s so used to us snuggling for naps it was hard. On both of us.
I love my kids but this seems really hard on Isabel so far.
Kathryn said,
July 24, 2010 @ 8:37 pm
You said it! I have days where I just want to hide my head in the sand and let the kids swarm around me while I am blissfully unawares. Ugh, but then I think of the ensuing mess. Just can’t get ahead.